You ever shake a soda bottle then unscrew the cap? It was like that.
I'm all for getting better and taking my meds like I'm supposed to, but Jesus these side effects - nausea and Parkinson's like shaking - are kicking my ass.
So almost a month after my diagnosis, I was finally prescribed my medication and I'm on the road to wellness.
I still have the usual "morning wood", but I know it's not necessarily a useful erection. I don't get any actual pleasure from masturbating with morning wood and I haven't made it through an entire "session" with myself in weeks.
Slow and steady wins the race, but this feels like a terrible game of hurry up and wait.
I understand why they're drawing so much blood (to test for CD4 levels, vitals to make sure you're healthy enough for certain medications, and to establish a starting point against which to measure either the progress or regression of treatment), but seriously no one prepares you feeling like a human pincushion.
Everyone prepares you for the day you find out you're HIV+, but no one prepares you for the day after - when all the supporting doctors and nurses are gone and you're left alone with just your thoughts and very little understanding of the next few steps.